I guess I expected more.
Today has definitely been crazy. 1. It was my last day of high school that I will never forget. Not because it was happy go lucky but b/c it was full of drama. I was so excited to reach out to a friend, which ended up going completely south. Instead of reaching to the friend drama started because of jealousy. If your jealous or intimidated by me I truly apologize. but you know what I’m not even going to waste my time talking about that anymore b/c i don’t even feel like going in. Lets talk about a friend who didn’t come through.
So I call a friend b/c I need to vent and I need some advice, but I get no answer This friend of mine is busy and sends me a text stating why they didnt answer, which i’m fine with but I explain to them that I need to talk to them before the day is over. Sure enough I never got a phone call or text. To be honest I knew I wasn’t going to get a call/text which is the sad part. This means i have been in denial about the relationship trying to think or i guess wish the person was better than they are. I’m not going to say your a bad person b/c you weren’t there, ima just say my importance to you isnt where i thought it was. o well no hard feelings taking. i kinda pumped the “friendship” based on other things that i shouldn’t have anyway. Lately I’ve seen a change in behavior and idk why. I’m a straight shooter and ask for nothing but the truth. just keep shit real with me and i’m good. Well its 130 in the dam morning and im tired so i’m going to sleep. Goodnight
Mood changes
Today has been such a moody day for me. I’ve been annoyed and disgusted by Many people today. It’s like I want to be by myself and not be bothered by anyone. Even people I usually want to talk to I didn’t want to today, of course except my best friend April its very rare she falls into the category of others. Well once school let out I was feeling a little less annoyed. I chilled w/ my “1030 group” for a while. We been hanging around like everyday lately I guess to enjoy out last moments together. Then I go to track practice and my mood changes completely I’m instantly annoyed b/c in surrounded by people who are so immature and ignore the fuck out of me! They just constantly play and say the dumbest shit out there mouth. So far I’d have to say the highlight of my day was my friend calling me to vent/ discuss a situation. idk if I was much help but I hope so b/c I love being there for him. I love being there for all my friends but some more than others lol. Well hopefully I’ll get a another highlight or laugh at work b/c I sure did need it. Its about that time I start getting ready now, later.
